Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Adoption dreams

I had a dream last night that I was holding my baby. The boys were in love and everything seemed peaceful. I often have these dreams and wake up sad in the morning and frustrated that we can't make this dream happen for our own family. Except this morning I woke up feeling peaceful and content.

I have challenged myself to make more of an effort to be grateful for what I have. While the boys ask a hundred questions a day and I run from place to place it is easy to get caught up in what I am wanting and what I have to "get done."

I am grateful for their questions and for their honesty as they see things in this life. Kaleb asked me the other day if he broke my tummy while I was pregnant with him. This was a hard conversation to have with a 4 year old.  I cherish his love of learning and his strong desire to be a big brother.

I could not ask for more in my life as the Lord has already blessed me beyond more than I deserve.
Sometimes I just need to remember to be present and take a front row seat to my blessings!

Am I the only one in this situation?

Love this pic,even if K's eyes are closed

1 comment:

Kurt, Alexandra, Yulia, Isabella said...

Oh, Alicia, you sweet girl! You are such a good mommy, don't beat yourself up. Kaleb is such a sweetheart, he is just concern for his mommy! You've always been an example to me and I am praying that everything will come true for you guys! Love your sweet family! It was so great to see you last week!