Adjusting...

Let's just say the boys going back to school has been an adjustment for all of us. In other words I HATE IT! I really miss them and I know I should be jumping for joy, but I miss my guys. I haven't found balance in finding myself a little more. I do think that as I adjust to them being in school I might remember what it is like to have free time. I would like to feel this free time with feedings and naps but I do have peace in knowing that it just might not happen. Have you ever been so certain of something and had it totally out of your hands? We have had so many "almost" experiences with adoption that we have really 100% learned it is in the Lords hands. While I do have more time to think about it now, the more I have realized that I trust in the Lord and his timing to bring a child into our home.